tHoTs... ...

quite some time since my last blog le....

censored contents... decided to take it out...

wats making it worst is dat my dad is rather sick and he hasn't really found a cure when he dun really noe wat is making him uncomfortable... it really pains me to see him suffer lidat ever since the holiday....at times he always thot he found a cure...but after a slight improvement... he will be back to the starting point and suffer.. he is always complaining everyday... and i really dunno wat to do to help him... i dun haf the abilities.... he even told me he wanna die....and he is a dying man... i really dunno wat to say.... the only thing i can say is dat probably he is on a road to recovery and it take time and a slow one.... hope this is true...at least he is recovering.... seeing him take all the medicine pills haiz... even he laugh by looking at them before popping them into his mouth... life really sux....i really dun mind dying for him if it will help him feel better... i understand that pain is really intolerable... he tells me dat he is always counting the seconds when he looks at the clock haiz...

actually it seems dat we live juz to die.... all of us are waiting for death to come..but at the meantime finding ways to make it more meaningful and useful and to try our best to survive and live life to the fullest.... but it seems dat reality is really making the latter a very tough thing to do... dats the world now...

guess it's time to blog-off... anyway... i am glad i still haf true frenz around me and one special uni buddy to depend on.... thanks guimin, ling, ade and simon... and frenz frm bezntuklass... really fortunate to noe you guys!